Amazing

it's amazing what switches your points of veiw...and what stings...everything. But, it's in the past, though there is not a day that goes by I don't think back...with those stupid questions of "What could I have done better? was there something else? could I have said something different? would it have worked anyways?" those stupid little questions. Cause the truth is, it didn't, the end. There's no going back and undoing the past, only making a new future/present/past. But then, that's the beauty(and pain) in life. The journey. what dosn't kill us will make us stronger. And there is many a time I have wished to just curl up and forget about living. However, life dosn't work that way. A simple fact. You have to keep moving...no matter what. maybe take a day off, lay in bed and try to forget, but after that, you gotta stand and walk.
There was a quote from a movie that I adored "You know why we fall down? To learn to pick ourselves back up" it's true...you have to keep learning and again, keep your head up. Omega by stone sour explains the other side, in many ways. how when life gets tough and you've had enough to just give in...not necessarily because that's what's believed but often times that's what happens. I've known people who have given up and just vanished, or even killed themselves. I know another who keeps fighting to live, (and is getting better) but tells me last Christmas was gonna be her last day. ..thank the goddess for tears. In the end, I think you just have to keep storng and forget about today and think "tomorrow WILL be better. Otherwise you'll fall.
Anyways, sorry for the jumpage...it was just a thought that came about after/before I talked to my dad the other night. He told me it'd be okay and made me remember why it was that is. I needed it, at the time. I should remember not to read some things*sigh* anywyas, maybe one day the world will understand me. Maybe one day I'll let them, however, today is not the day. Love you all!!!!