Amazing

it's amazing what switches your points of veiw...and what stings...everything. But, it's in the past, though there is not a day that goes by I don't think back...with those stupid questions of "What could I have done better? was there something else? could I have said something different? would it have worked anyways?" those stupid little questions. Cause the truth is, it didn't, the end. There's no going back and undoing the past, only making a new future/present/past. But then, that's the beauty(and pain) in life. The journey. what dosn't kill us will make us stronger. And there is many a time I have wished to just curl up and forget about living. However, life dosn't work that way. A simple fact. You have to keep moving...no matter what. maybe take a day off, lay in bed and try to forget, but after that, you gotta stand and walk.
There was a quote from a movie that I adored "You know why we fall down? To learn to pick ourselves back up" it's true...you have to keep learning and again, keep your head up. Omega by stone sour explains the other side, in many ways. how when life gets tough and you've had enough to just give in...not necessarily because that's what's believed but often times that's what happens. I've known people who have given up and just vanished, or even killed themselves. I know another who keeps fighting to live, (and is getting better) but tells me last Christmas was gonna be her last day. ..thank the goddess for tears. In the end, I think you just have to keep storng and forget about today and think "tomorrow WILL be better. Otherwise you'll fall.
Anyways, sorry for the jumpage...it was just a thought that came about after/before I talked to my dad the other night. He told me it'd be okay and made me remember why it was that is. I needed it, at the time. I should remember not to read some things*sigh* anywyas, maybe one day the world will understand me. Maybe one day I'll let them, however, today is not the day. Love you all!!!!

OMG

I got the FAFSA stuff in today!!!!! As long as I keep my grades up and taker 12 classes everything will be good. Life's looking up, motley*dances* and in two months I get a kitty!!!!! Yes, I'm excited..life is grand, but then, isn't it always?
Anyways, it's like midnight, and I just got home. Should eat, not hungry. Being sick for a period of time sucks*sigh* oh well...c'est la vie, ney?
I'm at two thousand words(since last night) in my story...I shall continue on, me thinks...I also have this weekend off, sounds like a good weekend to write...though, I need gas in my car, it's dreadfully low and yelling at me*sigh* dang things thinking they need fuel, sheesh heh, sadly, I've ran the poor thing out a lot of times, so, no need for that again...
anyways, my mind whirling, so you have had a jumbilation of thoughts thrown at you tonight.
OH! my boss at work thinks I'm blond, and not in hair color*sniffles* it's okay, she has right*remembers the night of dumping tables all over the ground* yeah, deffinitly has a right to it. *laughs* god I can be a ditz! anyways, tata for now all.
Love's y'all*huggles*

Another update!!!

Heh, I know, generally I don't update twice in one week, but I'm sick and bored. My roommate ran away from home(actually, she's at a play a "friend" is in...I want to go, just not tonight)
So, I heard from my ex again, she's in a town outside of detroit, I think(can't swear to that...I'm terrible with names) I'm hoping she has fun, it's always nice to run away from home for a bit*sigh* Like the trip to Reno, how I would ~love~ to go back. Though, I might have a weekend to visit Seattle (with me and a couple of friends) it shall be fun!!!! but, all in good time, ney!?
Anyways, roomy's back, and I'm freezing, so blanket time!!! love's y'all!!!!